Today it was finally time to decorate for Christmas! I have seen decorations go up on the streets, in shops, at work, through neighbor’s windows, on Instagram, so I was getting antsy since I love Christmas decorations. But as a Dutchie I had to wait until after the Sinterklaas holiday, which was yesterday.
As a mommy-to-be I have been consciously entering traditions into our lives for us to enjoy with our future little ones. And celebrating Sinterklaas will most definitely be one of them after our son is born, but we skipped it yesterday since I just had no idea how to celebrate with just the two of us. There are no special decorations, Yasu and I don’t do presents, there’s no Sinterklaas candy for sale in the British supermarkets, and as a Japanese man Yasu does not understand the whole Sinterklaas Surprise concept for adults. So no Sinterklaas for us this year. Next year, we’ll probably sing Sinterklaas songs with our baby boy and put out his shoe with a letter and some food for Sinterklaas and his horse. And I’m sure Zwarte Piet will leave a little gift for our little one.
This year December is just for Christmas in our house, oh and of course my husband’s birthday next week. And even though we never exchange gifts, I did get to receive the best gift ever two nights ago. Two little kicks from the little boy inside my belly. It was amidst a storm of bubbly feelings, which I had felt before but had not yet confidently identified as baby’s movements. But when he suddenly kicked me for the first time two evenings ago, I realized it has been him all along. Poor Yasu got so excited when I told him about the kicks and he desperately tried to feel something too, while rubbing my belly and speaking to it in Japanese. I hope he gets to feel him from the outside soon as well, I feel a bit guilty enjoying the baby’s movements and Yasu not being able to feel a thing. I can’t seem to stop feeling our little boy, I am so aware of him now. It is a very special feeling and not at all scary or weird like I imagined it could be. Baby boy Kotera seemed to enjoy decorating the Christmas tree with me today.